Kegelapan

As salam,

Pada hari Khamis selepas kerja, saya singgah ke rumah untuk mengambil Aqeel yang akan pergi tusyen.  Kena jalan awal kerana ada function @49.  On the way, kena singgah ambil Izzat (anak saudara) dulu yang tusyen sama dengan Aqeel.

Selepas tu I called suami untuk pergi terus ke teratak 49.  Ketika kita sampai cuma ada penyambut dan tetamu pun ada 6 orang.  Ini ada lah hari kenal suai dengan MD baru.  Makanan sedap, ada musik, dan live band.

Sekitar jam 6.45ptg, saya balik ambil Aqeel & Izzat while suami ambil Khairee yang masih di rumah nenek sebab ada oral test till 5pm.

Saya dan budak budak solat maghrib di Masjid P sebelum kerumah nenek untuk tahlil arwah.  Dalam perjalanan ke Masjid P, lampu jalan raya gelap.  Pikir lampu lampu kat jalan raya aje yang black out, rupanya bila kita nak masok simpang menuju Masjid P, sama juga gelap.  Total black out di kawansan itu dan rumah rumah di sekeliling pun gelap.  Dari luar cuma kelihatan lampu emergency yang menyala dari dalam masjid. 

Gelap betul kawasan parking dan jalan menuju masjid.  Terasa sunyi betul walau dari dalam Masjid P kedenganran jemaah membaca surah Yassin.  Yang kedengaran juga bunyi burung burung berkicau di atas pokok.  Apa nama burung burung ini tak juga saya ambil tahu.

Selepas berwudhu, kita masok solat.  Masa solat terasa begitu sayu.  Terasa begitu dekat dengan sang Pencipta walau solat dalam kegelapan dengan samar samar lampu emergency.  Ada juga jemaah wanita yang menggunakan lampu picit.  Hati tersentuh sehingga terasa sebak memikirkan yang bukan bukan i.e. jika di takdirkan ianya hari kiamat.  Apakah ini keadaan nya masa menunggu hari pembalasan dimana kita di dalam kegelapan?

Ya Allah, aku mohon syurga firdaus mu.  KAU cucuri lah rahmatMu kepada kami, lindungi lah kami, dan tempatkan lah kami semua dalam syurga Firdaus mu bersama orang orang yang soleh.  Ampun kan kami Ya Allah.  Sesungguhnya KAU lah maha pengampun.  Kami berserah kepada MU ya Allah.  Amin

Lampong Pecah

As salam,

Di kisah kan oleh emak saya bahawasanya, masa dia budak budak lagi, kisah ini terjadi sebelum emak saya lahir.  Tetapi emak saya selalu mendengar kisah ini dari nenek beliau mengenai kisah nenek Mok (adik kepada ayah emak saya) yang bermastautin di Pelembang.  Beliau adalah seorang alim di situ.  Apa nama kampong nya tidak saya tahu.

Di ketahui bahawa orang islam memang tidak makan daging babi dan ini memang di ketahui oleh orang setempat di kampong nenek Mok. 

Suatu hari, nenek Mok di jemput bagi doa tahlil.  Selepas doa dan makan, tuan rumah bertanya kepada nenek Mok ada kah sedap makanan yang di makan nya.  Nenek Mok pun menjawab dengan ikhlas "sedap".  Tuan rumah kemudian memberitahu bahawa yang di makan oleh nenek Mok adalah daging babi dan daging anjing.  Saya tidak juga bertanya kenapa tuan rumah itu berbuat sedemikian kepada nenek Mok.  Kemungkinan nya ada dua: (1) sengaja menganiaya nenek Mok; atau (2) ingin melihat betul kah tidak mustajab doa nenek Mok yang di kenali alim itu.  Wallahualam

Setelah pulang ke rumah, di ceritkan nenek Mok bersolat hajat memohon doa kepada Allah kerana teraniaya.  Selepas nenek Mok berdoa entah bila agak nya (entah malam itu juga, atau selepas sehari, atau minggu...) di ceritakan bahawa seluruh kampong itu kedengaran letupan yang begitu dasyat dan di tenggelami air.  Letupan itu boleh di dengar hingga ke Sarawak.  Siapa terkorban tidak di ketahui.  Cerita itu kemudian di ceritakan turun temurun dan di panggil "Lampong Pecah" olah masyarakat Sarawak.

Saya cuba cari kesasihan kisah ini tapi tak jumpa.

Moral of the story:

Doa orang teraniaya dimakbulkan oleh Allah.

Sunset & Sunrise

4th April 2010 - after watching movie at Sri Qlap.  Pic taken otw home

Haj 2009

I like travelling early in the morning and late in the evening.  Why?  This is because I get to see the sunrise and the sunset.  I like to see the change of the colors in the sky when the sun rises and when it sets.  I love to see the clouds and interpret what the shapes are.  Even now whenever I am in the car, I will ask my kids to look at the coulds and trees.  I feel I get closer with nature and to our creator.

I love it especially after the rain.  The trees look greener.  The sky looks clearer and blue.  The birds are happily flying around.

When it comes to sunset, well...that is another beauty.  All praise to Allah for this beautiful creation.  I thank Allah for giving me the chance to appreciate its creation.

May You guides our path always. 

Grrrrr

As salam,

It has been quite some time since I updated my blog.  I am so run out of ideas.  I remember something interesting but when it comes to writing, I lost it.  It is just this mental block.  I have read a few books a couple weeks ago, but it didn't help.  Am I losing it?  Is this what happen to authors?  Hmmmmm....not good.  Not good at all.

Come on brain,  work.....  Maybe I was having so much other stuff to think about and that it took over.....

Ka, come home quickly so that I have new ideas...we miss you...

Happy Birthday



left pic - 6 days old, right pic - 23rd Nov 2004 with Chiro



pic taken in 2000; left pic - Millionth Barrel Monument, Right pic 10/06/2005 - JPPC's Barney Big surprise

 

~  Happy 12th Birthday Nasreen  ~

For a dear daughter 

Here's a wish for happiness

And many dreams come true

Not only on your special day

But always, all life through

Happy Birthday

Semoga menjadi anak yang solehah

Tetap iman

berjaya dunia akhirat

Dipermudahkan semua urusan

Dalam rahmat dan perlindungan Allah

Amin yarabbalalamin

PRYNSA 13

Today was the prestigous award ceremony of the above for Aqeel and her team mates and 4 other schools.  This is the award for Princess Rashidah Young Nature Scientist Award (PRYNSA) which started in 1997.

All five schools presented their findings to the panel judges last week with recommendations.  Today was the presentation to the princesses, parents and other government faculties .  Last nite Aqeel and her friends went to Rizqun for their booth preparation (see below pic).  She came home around 7.30pm last nite.



Group pic with team and teachers

These schools were on national television last nite where they were interviewed at the locations of their research and at the lab.  From national television, the public would be able to know what they were doing, their studies, researches, lab tests etc.  These researches they did for about 1 year.  Their presentations were of high quality and standards.  They showed confidence in their presentations.

Aqeel and her team were doing "A study of characteristics, adaptation, society, symbiotic relations, importance in the ecosystem and feeding habits of the Giant Forest Ants in the Belait District."  They went to various locations for their field trip.

Though their school didnt win the top three places, Aqeel's team got the consolation prize, book voucher and certificate of participation.  She was proud to be in this competition as it was an experience she will treasure always.  I can see that she is doing better at public speaking.  I am sure she has learned a lot from this such as team work, dedication, time management and working under pressure.  All the contestants had the opportunity to present their findings to the princesses.

Well done Aqeel and her team.  Thank you to their teachers and all those who supported them to enable them to fully prepared for this event.  Unfortunately, I didn't get a good picture of the princesses.  I am sure the teachers have taken lots of pics during the prize presentation for each student.

Aqeel, may this experience makes you a stronger, confident but humble person and strive to achieve the best in life without forgetting your spiritual side.

100th days

As Salam, 

Today is the 100th days after my dad passed away.  Al Fatihah buat ayah.  Semoga roh mu di cucuri rahmat Allah, diampunkan segala dosa dosa nya dan di tempatkan bersama orang orang yang soleh dan beriman. Amin amin amin yaarabbalalamin.

Here, I would like to share with my kids what their late grandfather was like.

The followings were my late ayah's characteristics:

Patient (Penyabar) - He was someone who was patient.  If he was angry he always walked away.  We moved to Lumut in 1974 with only 2 houses there.  It was a jungle and very very quiet.  There were no common necessasities in those days e.g no electricity, no piped water, no phone, no gas, no bus service etc.  To cook our food, we relied on chopped wood for fires or we used the portable gasoline stove.  For drinking and shower, we used rain water.  During the draught season, we collected water from my sister's house who used to live at shell quarters.  We put all these waters in the drum.  We also dug up a well.  Though we used to living in shell quarters with all the necessary utilities, when we moved to areas without these bare neccessities, we didn't complain.  It was kind of an adventure for us kids.

To support us, my father went fishing.  Sometimes he came home within the day, sometimes after several days.  During the good seasons he caught lots of fish and able to treat us with what we want from the sale of those fishes.  When he was not going fishing, he mended his nets and boats.  Never once did we hear him complaint or sighing. My dad loved fishing and the sea.  When he was still working with the oil company, the salary was only a few dollars in those days which was not enough to support 8 of us kids.  So he went fishing in Lorong 7 or went crabbing during his off days.  He would come home very late at nite.

Polite and helpful - He was polite and helpful when someone requires any help from him.  He would also tried to the best of his abilities to help.  Due to our house was near the river, one Hj Saad (I think that was his name) who approached my dad to allow him to stay at our place and joined my dad during fishing.  The money from the sale of the fishes would be divided accordingly.  They stayed many years with us without paying any rent etc.  So many come and go and once they had their wings and knew the strings, they went their own way. Some even got the people who always followed my dad fishing to work with them.  As usual my dad just kept quiet.  But these people sooner or later would come back to join him and my dad would except them again even though he knew they had betrayed him.   He was a person who did not hold a grudge.

Joker - He can be funny when he needed to be and his grandchildren love him.  He was particularly closed with each of the 1st born of his grandchildren except for one.  My kids love him.  I really missed the funny side of him. 

Quiet - He was a person of few words.  Never did we hear him talking bad things about other people who had wronged him.  He didn't like to gossip.  That was probably why he didn't talk about those who wronged him so that we didn't know who these people were and that we don't hold any grudges against them.

Generous & sincere (jujur & Ikhlas)- He was a generous person and sincere in what he was doing.  He helped supported our cousins and their parents when they came to Brunei from Kucing and lived in our shell quarter's house for eight years while we moved to my elder sister's house.  Never once did he mention if he was unhappy with them etc. And he never ever ask them to pay him in return.  He didn't want money from them in return for his kindness or generousity.  All he wanted was just an occassional visits from my cousins to say hello or asked how he was.  That was enough for him. I don't think these cousins of mine had the opportunity to thank him.  That was why when he passed away, we can see the regrets in their faces.  My uncle really cried that day.

Never complaint - Never did I hear him complaint about anything even when he was sicked.  He never disclose whether he was in need of money or in any difficulty etc.  He tried his best to support us.  When he left the oil company, there were many people who borrowed money from him.  Some didn't even pay back.  He never mention who these people were and he never go to them to ask for the money back.

He had people who purposely called him names, who tried to make him angry etc, but what he did was he just smiled and walked away.  Never once did I hear him become angry when people did this to him and he never confided in us.  Maybe he didn't want to trouble us as we were kids.

Responsible (bertanggong jawab) - He was a person who knew his responsibilities as a husband and a father.  When my sisters were small, he cycled just to send them to school.  One sat at the front and the other sat at the back as he didn't want them to walk on their own.  He made sure they were safely sent to school.  When we moved to Lumut, my school time was untill 3pm.  So during lunch time I would walk to the hawker's place and had our lunch there.  The aunty was so nice (Al Fatihah).  Knowing us, she would give extra.  My dad made sure we had our lunch then go back to school.  After school, I would walk to town and my dad would always wait for us near the fish market.  We always reach home late in the evening.

Respect (Hormat) - He was a person who respect all visitors who came to our house.  Never once did I ever see him showed disappointment in his face even though those who came to our house had hurt his feelings or wronged him before.

Forgiven (Pemaaf) - He was a person who easily forgave those who had wronged him.

Trustworthy (amanah) -  He was a person who was trustworthy.  One time he was asked to look after the boats, engines, fishing nets of those who stayed with us.  These people came from Sabah.  After long at sea, they would go back to visit their famalies.  My dad was entrusted to look after these things.  Late at nite he would go out to the end of the bridge where these items were being placed just to make sure it was not stolen.

No matter how tired he was, he always made time for us and he never missed to do his prayers.

Knowing these qualities which my dad had, I pray to Allah so that I can embed these in myself as good as he was though not better.  I think he made the right move when we moved to Lumut in 1974.  If we had stayed in the shell quarters, I won't or we won't have known that life is hard.  We learn not to waste energy and water; we learn to save money and help people as sincerely as one can.  It reminded us that there are still unfortunate people out there who are far worst than us.  It reminded us to always be thankful with what we have and treasure it.

Thank you ayah for being YOU.  And thank you Allah for giving me such a dad.  I pray to Allah that my kids would have these qualities in them and for me to help them instill these qualities in them and reminded them.

We missed you ayah.  You are always in our hearts.